Society has gone mad. Each day I read something different on the paper but equally insane. I sometines think if our leaders watch the news or listen to the radio to see and hear those outrageous things that happen every day. It seems pretty unbelievable that those who run out country, those who we chose to guide us and lead us are constantly disappointing us.
They first use $600.000 in order to transfer football broadcast to the state channel. And all people think is "Yes! I'll be able to watch all games!" C'MON!!!! Thousands of people can't have a wound healed because there is no enough medical supply in hospitals. Thousands of people can't survive in an OR because hospitals ceilings keeps falling down. Thousands of people can't have breakfast, lunch and dinner every day... all year. Thousands of people can't go to school because they don't have shoes or a notebook to write on. Thousands of people can't go to school because their teachers are poorly paid and they have to go on strike. But that's all OK, because as long as thousands of people can watch football at home, who cares about the ones who are starving to death or dying at a hospital?
However, we are not stupid. Or at least I like to think that. I like to think that there are smart people out there who have realized that this is all a strategy of the government to cover up their dirty business.
But then I see on the news that marihuana has been legalized for personal use. So I have to think that we are stupid. Because, it's all a freaking circle. Let me explain because I'm quite angry about this. Here's the thing. We choose our government with our vote. And they choose those incompetent court judges who agree on legalizing marihuana. And let me go on on how the circle develops. Those morons who use drugs will now always be high at their homes because it's legal to do that. And when thet run out of drugs, they will go out and try to find some more. They may not have the money to buy it, so they will steal it from some guy who has worked all day long to earn that money, to buy that car, to have that mobile phone. But some idiot, who was too high to realized the damage he was doing, shot him. And this man, this honest injured man has to be taken to a hospital to be operated. But wait... when he gets there, there's no equipment and he dies because the money that should've been spent on hospitals went to broadcasting live football.
We are stupid. Because all govenments are the same. And we keep choosing them. We keep believing their lies. Because as my wise friend Greg House says "EVERYBODY LIES" and politicians are the worst. We buy those lies and believe they can be the miracle workers that might be able to change our country. But you know what? THEY CAN'T. And even if we try to deny it, we know it: every day, every four years when we vote, we know it. The only ones who can do something is US. THE PEOPLE. But do you know what we do? We don't believe in ourselves, and we don't see what can we do to help our country. So, do you know what we do? We stay at home, and watch every football game, because now we can.

Yep, I'm 19. I actually feel older. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm no longer in highschool, and I don't have anything to do these days because I dropped out of college.
Luckly, I had a great birthday, a lovely party with all my friends. Can't complain. Yay!

OK, I'll go on with my empty life.

xo, B.

Long time since the last time I've written here. And lots of things happened that changed my life.

1. I've decided to drop out of college. I no longer want to be a Teacher of English. I think I never wanted to be one, but I convinced myself that if I wanted to go on with the English language I had to study something that gave me English 24/7. However, it wasn't my calling.
2. I've decided to become a journalist. From all the courses of study that I've looked during the past few days, it's what I like best. I love writing and I love English, and by becoming a journalist I could combine both. I hope it works out.
3. In the meantime, I got to do something with my life. Perhaps, working and enrolling in a journalism course; learn how to drive. As for now, I've started going to the gym which is a huge step for me (I hate the gym, is boring!).

Let's change the subject because my so-not-exciting life is quite boring. Tomorrow is my birthday. I turn nineteen. I don't want to. I feel like I'm at the door of adulthood and I don't want to go there. I LOVE being a teenager, it's great. But I also want to grow up and become this responsible human being. It's weird, but it's how I feel.
OK, the thing is that I'm thowing a party tonight because after midnight it'll be my birthday. I'm not a party girl. I actually hate to celebrate my birthday. I hate people coming to my house, I HATE IT!!!!! But, if you don't celebrate it.... they'll come to your house anyway, so it's better to actually invite them. And tomorrow night, I'll celebrate it with my family.


Well, I've witten quite a lot today. I think it's enough because, then I'll run out of words.

XO, Bell.

I've decided to get rid of the old layout. I got bored of it so I did one a little bit more personlised. It reflects my likes and dislikes. Hope you like the banner: it actually took me 2 hours to do it but I think they were worth it. I also added a quote space at the bottom of the page (I will include quotes from One Tree Hill, House, Grey's Anatomy and others). Regarding the music you are currently listening, it took me some time to find songs that are meaningful to the essence of this blog. The first one is "Laughing With" by Regina Spektor, who in my opinion is a hell of a singer, yet not well known here. Secondly, "The World We Live In" by The Killers, who I will -hopefully- go to see this year (fingers crossed); followed by Queen singing "These Are The Days Of Our Lives", a beautiful piece of art. And last, but not least, the love of my life Robert Peter Williams doing "Nan's Song", one of his most deep and sweet song.

Basically, I intend all of this to last for a couple of months. (Good luck with that, some people would say)