A few weeks have passed since the last time I wrote here.
I made a few changes, new layout. Oh, yes. I have free time to spend on stupid things, like having a blog, and not studying at all. I hope you like it. I found it and I immediately fell in love with it.

I've started my 2nd week of my "swine flue holidays" (that's how my Mum likes to call them). My teacher have sent me a lot to do, and I believe I haven't done even half of it, but well... I have become this lazy person who likes sitting in front of screens (laptop, TV). But seriously, tomorrow I'll do my best and try to do A LOT. Otherwise, it's going to be Monday and I won't have done anything.

Lately I've been having this feeling of uncertainty. I'm not that sure if what I'm studying is what I should. What I want. What I like. I mean, I like it, but is it my future? It is what I picture myself doing in the future. I've already turned down 2 jobs because I was afraid. I'm afraid of a classroom, of the children, of whatever might happen there. But the thing is, if I never teach in a big class, what the hell am I gonna do the rest of my life?

I like many things. I could study Journalism, Publicity, Production, even Art. I like all those things. I'm not even sure if I would be good at them, but I don't close doors that soon. I could do all those things later on in my life. However, I enjoy studying English. But I already know Enlglish. OMG! I hate crisis!!!!! They are very biiiiig problems for which I don't have solutions.

You see all that people that like what they study, they like their jobs. They don't care how much they earn, of if they have lousy bosses. They love what they do. I want that. I want it very much. But how do I find out if this is it? It's so hard. When you are in highschool, you take everything for granted and you are taken for granted. It's so much easier. And now, adulthood sucks. Responsibily, doing things on your own, deciding what you want!!!! I just want to know. I hate not knowing.


The thing is people think I know what I want. And they don't realise that I'm just a regular teenager who is still trying to find herself. They take me from granted. It's what everybody does. Why? Am I so predictable? So easy to firgure out? Because I always thought that a good quality about myself was that I was intereting, unexpected... but now I know that I'm totally predictable. I can be taken for granted because there's not much option.


Anyway, I'm here. In the comfort of my own bedroom, my sacred place (?) listening to The Kooks' concert here in Buenos Aires. Yep, sadly listening to it on the radio :( I'd love to be there, but I didn't get tickets, a pity. At the smae time, I'm making some collage, sort of happy birthday sign for my sister's 17th birthday tomorrow. So I'd better go back to that.


(Wow!, I wrote a lot today! Too much to say, i guess)



xo, B.